Untangling and Uncovering a Mess of Desire

When it comes to pursuing desires, what many people, especially hardworking people, often forget to ask themselves is the simple question:

“Do I want to do it?”

And then follow that question up with:

“Does it feel fun?”

“Is it something I want to do or is it something I think I should do?

Does my heart sing in the idea of the beginning steps of it?”  

And if the answer is, “I don’t know,” then it’s too soon. Or if the answer is, “No, I’m doing it because I should,” then perhaps it isn’t the right thing to do. –Abraham

What I need to do is drop the oars and quit paddling up stream. I keep trying to sort of manhandle things in my life into place even though I know that doesn’t work. When I know what I want, I have no trouble focusing on what I want until I get it. I am a blank slate for the Universe to write instructions upon, which I obediently follow. Everything lines up effortlessly. But recently I  have acquired a seemingly random and seemingly incomplete jumble of desires. I want so badly to focus 1000% of my being into creating the life of my dreams, but I don’t know where to start or what to do with all these desires. Or at least I didn’t until I listened  to the above words of Abraham.

Oh to live out here with my amazing boyfriend, puppies, and horses *wistful sigh* ❤

Where I was confused and seeking clarity I asked myself those questions. It turns out the tangles were all things I think I should be doing. Not things I really want to do. Not things I really think will be fun. Not things that make my heart sing. What happens is, being the devoted Law of Attraction student I am, I read and read and read. I study, study, and study. I have a little success. I launch 1000 rockets of desire, because if there’s anything I’ve ever been good at since birth, it’s dreaming! Then I get antsy. I get anxious. Of the thousands of rockets of desire I’ve launched, there are a handful that are all-consuming desires. They are “big” from where I’m standing. And in no way do I have any idea how or where to begin moving towards these astronomical desires, but I want to move towards them and I want to move towards them LAST YEAR!

In my anxious impatience I began doing things to try to bang elements into place that I thought would lead me closer to some of things I desire. Shockingly (sarcasm) all the actions I have taken and all the banging around I’ve done, trying to find something productive to do to create these amazingly wonderful things I want so desperately, has not panned out.

I looove pine trees, and their bark. I love the smell of pine!

So what’s the answer? How do I manifest this “BIG” stuff?

Oh yeah. The ART OF ALLOWING. Yes, that. It’s so hard for a hardworking, action-oriented type of person to LET GO. But if I believe that I am a creator and that the way I create is by achieving a vibration that the Law of Attraction responds to, then shouldn’t EVERY EFFORT that I offer, hardworking person that I am, (or the majority of every effort that I offer) be about producing the emotion or the feeling and trusting that the rest will fill in, because it will? Umm…YES.

When I try to bang things into place with action, it’s like putting the cart before the horse. It’s like paddling upstream with all my might. It’s hard and it sucks and I don’t want to do it anymore.

Many people determine that they want to feel a certain way and then focus on an avenue that they think will get them there. But if they focused on creating the emotions or feelings, the feeling state of having what they desire, then a multitude of avenues would open up.  There is not one opportunity, there are many opportunities. There is not one path to what you desire, there are endless paths to all that you desire. –Abraham

But do you want to know what I really “got” today that was so huge?

I don’t even need a specific thing to desire.

Sit with that idea yourself for a while.

All I need to do is launch a powerful desire to feel good, just light that rocket of desire up, and get out of the way. Because what is behind every rocket of desire we launch? The belief that we will feel better in the having of it. What are we always, always, always wanting? To feel better. So pursuing feeling better, launching a powerful rocket of desire to feel good, raising oneself vibrationally…it’s like  a one-stop vibrational shop for everything wonderful you’ve ever wanted. You don’t have to work hard. You don’t. You really don’t. You just have to focus on feeling good, keeping your vibration up, and allowing the Universe to figure out EVERYTHING for you.

Looking up!

This is why it’s easier to manifest things you don’t care about. You love, appreciate, and desire something. You forget about it (allowing). And then all of a sudden, surprise, there it is, from an unexpected avenue, out of the blue. Honestly, it’s really fun to launch a desire for something, expect it to show up, and wait for that out of the blue moment when it seemingly falls out of the sky into your lap.

So I’m doing this with my art business, my love of Parelli Natural Horsemanship, my passion for studying the Law of Attraction, and my deep-seated desire to live in Pagosa Springs. I’m just going to focus on loving, appreciating, and enjoying these things. I’m going to focus on loving, appreciating, and enjoying myself. I’m going to focus on loving, appreciating, and enjoying everything I do. I’m dropping the oars and letting myself float with the flow of the Stream of Well-being.  I’m going to quit the exhausting efforts I’ve been making to try to figure things out (a sure sign you’re trying to push and bang things into place instead of allowing). I’m letting the Universe take the reins in my life and fully opening myself to endless possibility.

I surrender all to SOURCE.

The stream of Well-Being, I love the sound of water and feeling of being immersed in nature.

I’m tired of being tired and tired of that feeling of not being there yet. Of not reaching and fulfilling all of my potential. Of not living in the service of grand purpose. I’m tired of being out of alignment! All I want is now is to live as one with Source.

There is no longer anything I desire as deeply as a deep, unwavering and infinite state of peace and wellness, a  deep, unwavering and infinite state of love, and a deep, unwavering and infinite state of joy! I desire every life-giving, out-of-alignment warning signal of negative emotional resistance to be a blip on my radar as I bask in well-being 99% of the time. There is nothing I desire more than to be fully in the flow with Source. There is nothing I want more than flow with Source as Source fully utilizes all of my gifts and abilities to help others.

And so I give up all control. I give up trying to figure things out. And I invite Source to bring all I have ever desired and more in the most surprising and wonderful ways. 

Here we go!…

Universe, light my way, light up the path I’m to follow! Bring me home. Bring us home.

To All My FOLLOWERS, The ART of Life is MOVING!

The reason I haven’t been posting much for a while is because I’ve been building a new website! I decided it was time to make the leap from wordpress.com to wordpress.org, acquire my own domain, and self host my own website through Blue Host. It has been quite the learning experience! After much trial and much error, I am now SO happy to announce my website is finished! For the moment 😉

My new website is http://www.artbyjmiriam.com!

There are a few bummers about moving to my new website and they are:

1) First and foremost, unlike what I was led to believe, followers were NOT transferred in the migration of  my blog to wordpress.org, because they cannot be transferred. It’s just the way it is. So if you want to continue following my blog, you’ll have to subscribe to my new site at www.artbyjmiriam.com and I hope you do, because I have so many awesome things to write about as my business is growing and growing!

2) My likes did not transfer either, which isn’t a big deal, but still kind of a bummer.

3) There’s NO READER for wordpress.org!!!! Not even anything like it for wordpress.org. I was so shocked. With the wordpress.com JetPack installation, you get the likes button and the subscribe button and a ton of other awesome features for your wordpress.org site, but no reader. So for this reason I’m not entirely sure I’m going to redirect all my traffic from this site to the new one. I will most likely do so eventually, but I’m not going to do so right away. I’ll sleep on it.

I’ve also been filling up my Etsy store FINALLY!! So excited! I’m going to keep photographing and posting things this week, pretty excited to get all these things up for sale now that I’ve finally finished my new website! So many stories to tell! Now I’m going to get to writing a new blog post on my new site. Hope to see you there!

 

 

What’s in a Thought?

Science has proven that we are not controlled by our genes. Its called epigenetics-

1. the study of the process by which genetic information is translated into the substance and behavior of an organism: specifically, the study of the way in which the expression of heritable traits is modified by environmental influences or other mechanisms without a change to the DNA sequence.

It is our beliefs, our perceptions, that determine what manifests in our lives. We determine our genetic expression based on how we perceive the world around us. We are the masters of our lives.

For example, 33% of people with the genes for cancer never develop cancer. Why? Lifestyle.

I think just about everyone has heard of the placebo effect in which people are given sugar pills, told they’re medicine, and recover from their ailment purely from the belief that they were receiving a powerful drug. But have you heard of the nocebo effect? It’s the reverse of the placebo effect, like getting bit by a non venomous snake, believing it was poisonous and dying. That’s a dramatic example, but that’s how powerful the mind is, it can create Heaven on earth or it can literally kill us. The nocebo effect is how we worry ourselves sick, it’s how stress creates illness in the body, and it’s something we all greatly need to understand in order to stay/become healthy!

BIOLOGY and THOUGHT

Thoughts give rise to emotions, which release different neurotransmitters, which in turn release different neurohormones, which all translate into changing the tissue culture medium, in other words the fluid that bathes your cells. How many cells do we have? 50 trillion or so, more than you could count to in a lifetime.

So every second, every thought is releasing different neurohormones that go into the fluid that bathes your cells, bind to the cell membrane, which sends a signal to  the nucleus of the cell, which can actually change the way the DNA makes proteins. This is where epigenetics come into play.

We have thousands and thousands of thoughts every day, and each is translated by your nervous system into a chemical response. It’s a simple thing.

THINK LOVE and GROW HEALTHY

If you close your eyes and open them to see someone you love before you, the thoughts and feelings of love you manifest in your head turns into chemistry and most people are very aware of this–when they’re so in love and they feel so in love, they’re so healthy.

A thought of love is translated by the brain into the release of some really wonderful hormones like oxytocin and dopamine, creating pleasure and growth hormones that cause cells to become really, really healthy. So when you SEE someone you love, you FEEL someone you love and the chemistry of love creates ultimate health!

Now if a person opens their eyes and sees something that scares them, they’re going to release whole different kind of chemistry in the body. Stress hormones and inflammatory cytokines are created and cause the cells to go into protection-mode and wall themselves off against a threat. These stress hormones create butterflies in the stomach, anxiety, nervousness, and in that process what you’re really feeling is a chemical reaction released by the brain–and this is altering our genetic activity. This is why it’s a fundamental fact that stress is the greatest cause of illness on the planet!

This is good news! We are not helpless victims of our genetics. We can achieve ultimate health and wellness through deliberate thinking. We were born to love. We were all genetically coded for stardom by living love, by following our bliss. When live anything else, we suffer. And it is self-made suffering. We aren’t victims of circumstance, we are only victims of our own thinking. Change your thoughts and change your life, even change your genetics! Banish fear-based thoughts by deleting them mentally and reinserting thoughts derived from love. Follow. Your. Bliss.

–This post is primarily the conversation that took place during the Hay House World Summit between Bruce H. Lipton, Phd. and Joan Borysenko

Healed by Piedra Falls

I spent yesterday in a total funk. Headache, backache, stomachache and mind in a total haze. I just couldn’t get myself out of it. I would say I don’t know where it came from, but all physical ailments are born in the mind, so somehow, I created this. Definitely not on purpose, but I’m too aware of my mind now to not know the connection between my physical issues and my thoughts.

In the weakened state of having reveled in many delicious beer samples at Beerfest in Omaha, the love of my life casually mentioned a potential job opening in South Dakota. In my fuzzy state, I lost hold of the security of all I know to be true about the Law of Attraction and my heart sank as my thoughts wandered to the idea of moving to South Dakota and the devastation of maybe having to move there other to the place of my dreams, Pagosa Springs, a dream so alive now, so real, and so close that I have literally reached out and touched it. My Piedra Falls photos brought me back to my joy.

My two boys hitting the trail to Piedra Falls.

The dogs took to the mountains like fish to water.

My boys 🙂

It’s quite the drop off directly to the right of the trail here.

Nice calves.

Piedra Falls!

It was SO loud!

It’s definitely a gusher as described on paper.

The water was ice cold and I got drenched trying to take photos up here!

I couldn’t keep the camera lens dry.

As I got closer I realized there were rainbows by the falls 🙂

Gorgeous!

Love this one.

The Piedra River at the base of the falls, beautiful.

I think allowing my mind to detour in that manner is what put me in such funk that it literally made every part of my body ache. And it’s silliness. I know I can create the life of my dreams. I know I don’t have to work against my soul goals. I know it, I know it, I know it, but as the teachings of Abraham say, the goal is to not constantly stay in the vortex, the journey is the goal. You have to experience what you don’t want in order to know for sure what you do want. It’s also become increasingly a struggle to not cling to Pagosa Springs, because I want it so bad and it’s been a struggle to not be concerned about what my partner is manifesting for himself in his thoughts as relates to the potential job and move. So I’ve been reminding myself to just bask in my dreams of living in Pagosa Springs and let go of everything else. The journey of expansion and learning through joy is the purpose of life. I just need to live in the moment, love where I am, and keep doing the work to open up space in our home for greater abundance and creativity. Keep creating the life I want each moment, even it’s practicing meditative breathing while I organize my kitchen cabinet in a beautiful and more functional manner. Keep creating the life I want each moment, practicing aligning myself with Source as I weed the gardens. Effortless accomplishment comes when you stay aligned with Source and that’s what I want for every part of my life. That’s not to say that it’s not hard work, but all work comes easier when your mind is in a state of peace, everything just flows.

So today is about reclaiming my sanity, reclaiming my dreams, reclaiming joy, and reclaiming my alignment with Source. Last night I fell asleep curled up in a strange position in the recliner, but it felt right, and I was determined to make today a better day. I eventually woke up from my strange, awkward position, went to bed, and woke up early to do yoga. I did an hour of yoga, took a refreshing shower, and went back to sleep for a few hours. Today has already proven to be a better day as I’ve spent the last few hours drinking chai tea and editing Colorado photos I took in Pagosa Springs a few weeks ago. I also perused the expanded Vision Board I made on Pinterest, which brought me great joy. Today is going to be a very creative day, it already is, and the effortless accomplishment will continue.

I still fall off the spiritual wagon from time to time, but I get back on much more quickly these days. The greater your spiritual practice becomes, the quicker it is to steal your mind back from the ego, let negative emotions fade into nothing, and return to that peaceful center. Back to work!

 

Metamorphosis

This is one of my first attempts at adding my poetry to my photography. I’ve gotten much, much better now that I’ve had graphic design and discovered the freedom of Illustrator! So I love this poem and now that I know how to do all kinds of crazy things with text, I’m going to create a series of poetry-photography combinations. I do enjoy graphic work!

As the photograph isn’t incredibly easy to read, here is the poem in text form.

Metamorphosis

It’s never too late to change,

It’s never too late to heal those scars,

It’s never too late to realize,

What you have done is not is not who you are.

Learn from your pain,

And spread those beautiful lace-like wings,

You know better now,

Transform, rise up, and keep rising.

Release yourself from your past,

Become as weightless as a butterfly,

These delicate wings can’t carry,

All the sorrows of your life.

Let go and do better now,

Own the wisdom of this space,

That is accessible at every moment,

Through reception of God’s empowering Grace.

-J. Miriam